Lately, In All My Dreams

I see you lately in all my dreams. You needed saving in a burning apartment. I blow you a kiss and I lock you in.

That’s from a song I was recently hooked in – Death Grips by Etta Marcus

I thought I’d give you an update on my life lately.

I’ve been doing well.

Yesterday I watched the movie Swiss Army Man. Its added to my fav movie list now. I thought it was pure comedy but it turned out to be an unusual deep tear-jerker movie and I LOVE IT. I especially love these lines:

“Everything poops.” — Hank.

“If my best friend keeps his farts from me, what else is he hiding from me, and why does that thought make me feel so alone?” — Manny.

“But maybe everyone’s a little bit ugly. Yeah, maybe we’re all just ugly, dying sacks of shit and maybe all it’ll take is one person to just be okay with that, and then the whole world will be dancing and singing and farting, and everyone will feel a little bit less alone.” — Manny.

I think the message of the movie is about how shame creates distance between people. The way we hide some parts of ourselves that is actually a normal human body function like farting because of shame. Farting in the movie is like a metaphor for how much we censor ourselves just to be accepted. We start performing a version of ourselves instead of just being ourselves.

Everyone farts. Everyone is awkward and has moments they’d rather hide. The only difference is how well we hide it. And that’s where the loneliness comes in. When everyone is pretending they don’t have these “ugly” parts, it creates this silent pressure to look perfect but it is isolating. If no one shows their real self, no one feels truly seen. If even one person is openly, unapologetically human, it helps others feel safe enough to do the same. The more you accept your own “ugly” parts, the less power shame has over you and the more real your connections become.

After watching the movie it made me think about this and I thought I should write it even how ridiculous it sounded:

Sometimes we were just caught up in other people’s shit and their shit doesn’t have anything to do with us. And our shit doesn’t have anything to do with them either. Though eventually their shit might get mixed up with our shit or affect our shit in some way, we have the power to control our shit in a way that is better for our shit and even for other people’s shit.

I said alot of “shit” there hahah but that probably maybe is the most un-AI thing you’ll read today or maybe in a while.

That’s it for my update. See you on the next one ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ ).

Wait, Who’s Cora?

I just watched The Hallow movie. While the movie has gorgeous visuals, I was left with more questions afterwards. There were scenes that feels like it could mean something more or didn’t make sense to me, so I tried to look for an ending explained YouTube video but couldn’t find one so I just asked ChatGPT.

I asked about the part near the end where the book flips to a page showing a drawing of the mother, father, and baby. Then I asked who Cora was, the creature that Adam found holding the baby. ChatGPT told me that Cora was Colm’s wife who tried to kill her changeling baby and was later ostracized by the people who thought she was insane. Later on she was killed by the creatures or possibly by a changeling version of her own child.

I can’t remember seeing that scene in the movie so I replayed the movie and didn’t find that scene.

Still confused, I went to Google for a second opinion. And found that Cora is actually Colm’s daughter. ChatGPT literally made up a backstory where Cora was Coln’s wife. I think that’s what they call an AI “hallucination” and it was so obvious.

Also, I have to mention this random thought I had while watching the ending scene of the film. I found myself lowkey relieved when the trees were cut down. This movie unintentionally felt like propaganda for deforestation. 😭

Anyway, that’s not really the point of this post. I just had to document my first time catching ChatGPT hallucinating in real time.