2021 Playlist

Hello there,

We’re nearing the end of the year.

This year started out okay for me, even brightly. Then a full-blown high. And now? It’s dropped. Hard.

It’s made me wonder… Is there a thin line between happiness and rage? Because lately, I’ve been dancing on that line more often than I’d like.

I’ve been feeling rage but it’s not the dramatic, screaming kind. It’s the quiet burn that disappears before anyone even notices. It fizzles so fast that I’m only left with the guilt like an aftertaste.

Unrelated, but I’ll leave you with something I’ve been circling around lately:

Love isn’t supposed to feel like a chore, a burden, or an obligation.

And yet… this year, I was lucky to feel a sweet kind of love. Like honey. But why does it still feel heavy on my chest?

…Maybe I’m just a mosquito?

With conflicted feelings,
– Belle