Amabelle

Some time ago, I made a playlist for my highest self or the person who I thought I was supposed to become. The songs spoke of confidence, manifestation and reinvention. It was curated for the version of me who had it all figured out. The best, coolest, most unstoppable version of myself.

So I made another playlist. This one is softer. It feels or has the vibe of my favorite version of me.

Most songs I added on this playlist have the waltz rhythm. I didn’t realize how much I like those. I also like when there’s a sound of tambourines and that soft, echoey “ooOooh” sound that is like a gentle howl.

My favorite version of myself is not especially radiant but she is kind and a little dreamy. She acts with intention. She may not always be happy, but she is content. She loves life and romanticizes the little things without pretending it is always beautiful. There is a sweetness to her yet she doesn’t believe she owes herself to anyone. She knows that peace is a choice. She knows how to say no but she’s soft, still. And most importantly she knows how to stay curious.

She writes things like this—not to prove anything, but to remember who she is when the world gets too loud.

And in her presence, I feel safe.