Novacain

Dear You,

It’s October 31.

The last day of the month… so Happy (Hollow)Halloween?

Lately, I’ve found myself wondering:

What if I could feel nothing at all?

No pain, no sadness, no anger.

But if I felt nothing… would I still be alive?

Living means feeling everything at once.

And maybe we need grief in order to recognize joy.

Maybe the hard moments are what sharpen the beautiful ones, making them feel real.

I like to think that sorrow teaches us how to hold happiness more gently when it finally arrives.

P.S. I made a playlist to recreate the sensation of Novacain through songs. A little emotional anesthesia.

If you have time, I’d love for you to listen.

With care,
– Belle

Maybe I want a love that consumes

Hi… something strange happened today 🦇

I hit shuffle on my saved songs… and suddenly, I was 15 again.

Back then, I had just finished reading The Vampire Diaries series and was completely, tragically in love with Damon Salvatore. That deep, soul-crushing kind of love for someone who didn’t even exist 😭

These were the songs I listened to during that era.

I remembered the silly things I did like tying my hair up to show off my neck, hoping a vampire would notice. I’d leave my window open at night, fully believing he might appear.

Who hasn’t fantasized about a dangerously charming vampire falling for them?

One who’s sarcastic, bad in the best way, and would literally love you forever?

Anywayyy… here’s the playlist. A portal to my teenage fever dream.

I hope it reminds you of something too 💘

P.S. If you’re a Delena fan and haven’t read the book, Read Shadow Souls… you’re welcome.

With eternal love,
– Belle

Coronavirus Playlist – 2020

Hi, I hope you’re doing okay 🌫️

It’s wild to think that in 2021, the pandemic still feels so present.

Back in 2020, I created a playlist that sort of captured what that year felt like to me. These songs became my quiet soundtrack… something to play while looking out the window or lying still.

I thought I’d share it with you. Maybe it could bring you a sense of comfort?

🎧 Plug in your headphones, look up at the sky, and press play.

Stay safe!
-Belle

Sad Music for Bad Days

Hi, it’s Belle again ☁️

Lately, I’ve been feeling a little… heavy. The kind of weight you can’t quite explain. Maybe it’s just the weather. Or maybe its my stupid hormones 🙃

But here’s something interesting I read:

Listening to sad music can actually help us process emotions in a healthy way.

It’s like giving your feelings a soft place to land. aaand negative times negative is positive right?

So I made a playlist. Its nothing too dramatic, just a space to breathe, cry a little, or simply stare at the ceiling (preferably while it’s raining).

I’m sharing it here in case you need it too.

-EmoBelle

Wifi Isn’t The Only Thing With Instant Connection

Hallo!

Just sharing this playlist because I felt really nice last month.

I’ve decided not to deny myself the simple pleasure of saying true things anymore.

I love you, and I’m glad I exist.

Sincerely,
Belle

 

2019 Playlist

Hi Hiiii

Here’s a playlist I made back in 2019, during a time when I was going through a lot of changes.

I basically threw in any song that felt good to me at the moment. This playlist is what I listened to in 2019 every morning before going to my internship, while hanging out, and during road trips.

I loved every song here so much that I kept listening to it well into 2020.

With love,
-Belle