Holy Chill

Haluu,

How are you doing??

Can we just take a second to process that it’s NOVEMBER already?! The month associated with horror 👻. So, in the spirit of all things eerie, I thought I’d share something scary that happened to me just to add to the “atmosphere” hehee.

There’s a reason why I created this playlist.

When I was in college, I would always wake up between 2-3 am Or sometimes right at 3 a.m. for no reason. At that time there was also something going around about it being the devil’s hour. So yeah, I was fully spooked. Eventually, I stopped checking the time altogether cause I didn’t want to know.

Then one night, I woke up extra freaked out. Like, straight-up panicking for zero reason and feeling this weird dizzy sensation. It was like… something was trying to take over my body? like I was being possessed. I was so scared and confused as to why I was feeling that way. I started rummaging through my phone looking for any song that could basically un-demon me, and thank GOD I found one worship song saved on my phone (We didn’t have wifi at the time).

I went and played it and felt myself being unpossessed. It was “I Am Nothing” by Ginny Owens, and let me tell you—I played that on repeat like my life depended on it. After a few plays, I finally felt… normal? And somehow drifted back to sleep.

I have no idea how that worked. Maybe the song’s just filled with positive energy? Maybe it’s got some spiritual mojo going on? Who knows? All I know is that whatever kind of magic is in that song totally did the trick. So now, if this ever happens again, I’ve got a playlist on standby for my personal exorcism session.

2023 playlist

Hiiiii!

It’s the end of the year! This year started kinda off, maybe that’s what I felt with most of the start of my year in the past too but this year has turned out different from what I expected.

I expected it to be uneventful, like the past two years when there was a pandemic. A quote I could use to describe this year was “Last year I abstained; this year I devour without guilt, which is also an art.” by Margaret Atwood.

There’s alot of things I experienced this year like going on my first solo travel and out of the country trip to Japan. I still don’t know where I got the strength to do that. For someone (introvert) like me, that was an achievement.

There are so many things that went wrong this year, as well as things that didn’t work out. Like a famous quote says, “There is no failure, just redirection.”. Things may not go the way I hoped, but I’m at ease knowing that the choices I made are the ones that I think were the best choices at that exact moment and with what I knew at that time.

I made a playlist for this year, which I added below. Honestly, I didn’t listen to it the whole year because I listen to podcasts most of the time. The songs I added here were songs I’ve discovered this year and songs I’ve listened to on repeat. I hope you like it.

– Belle ⭐

Christmas Playlist

Haluuu,

It’s only a few days until Christmas. Have you finished wrapping your gifts? or have you decorated your home?

I just finished setting up our living room Christmas tree and hung a Christmas lantern outside our house. I usually decorate as soon as the ber months come but this year, the celebratory spirit within me just can’t.

Here’s a playlist I made to keep the Christmas spirit alive. I realize that as you get older, you lose your Christmas spirit, but I’m hoping this playlist helps to bring it back, even just a little.

Wishing you a Merry Christmas,
Belle🎄

My fav Taylor Swift Tracks in 2023

The first Taylor Swift song I listened to was Love Story. It was also my first favorite song from her. I really loved that song, so I wrote its lyrics down to memorize them. I even translated it to Tagalog to show my friend, who doesn’t understand English, what the lyrics meant and how good it was.

Right now, my favorite TS song is Peace. I interpret it as a song about someone who believes they disturb another person’s peace just by being with them. That person accepted everything, loving her unconditionally and embracing not just her easily lovable qualities but also her personal imperfections. She feels unworthy of this love, so she asks if it’s fine that she may never provide the peace the other person deserves.

I created a playlist that you can stream below. It’s a list of my favorite Taylor Swift songs this year. I hope you take time to listen to them.

With love,
-Belle

2022 Playlist

Helloooooooo!!!

I hope your day is going well.

Here’s another playlist I made in 2022. I now plan on making a playlist each year. Like a playlist for each season of my life.

In 2022, I’ve learned to accept being alone and realize that it’s not that bad.

I’ve read a quote before saying something like, “You’re born alone and will die alone”. I liked that quote before, but I don’t think I fully understood it at that time. But now I finally understand what it meant and why a character would say such a sad line.

Maybe I’m meant to be alone. Thinking about it, maybe if I went with the flow or stop doing things just to keep myself from losing people early on in my life, I’d really end up alone.

It’s ridiculous how many times I mentioned the word alone. Anywayyy I might as well just do cool stuff, go to cool places, or whatever.

-LonelyBelle

Vecna Playlist

Hiii..

I created this playlist just in case Vecna (from Stranger Things) tries to take me, but honestly, I’ll go with him willingly after knowing that he’s Jaime 🤭. I’ve had a crush on him ever since I saw him in The Mortal Instruments.

-Belle

Just Like Magic

Hi there..

Here’s my first playlist blog for the year 2022.

Since it’s a new year, this is my chance for a fresh start because last year… I’m not sure what happened there, but I know its not good. It was a mess. I’m a mess.

This year, I want to cultivate my self-worth, embrace self-love, and immerse myself in a positive mindset. Then see where that will take me.

In the past, I used to picture myself as characters from books I’d read and think about what they’d do in my situation. Its easier for me to make decisions or do things that are challenging for me that way.

There were traits these characters have that I wish I had, for example, confidence or self-esteem. Traits I can’t just have with a snap of a finger. Now, I’m into the idea of a highest self. A somehow fictional character, but its me in the future if everything turns out well.

I’ve curated a playlist that mirrors the essence of what I envision my highest self to be or what I want to manifest my future self to be. I hope you enjoy it and that it proves beneficial as you explore your own journey towards your highest self.

With love,
-Belle

2021 Playlist

Hello there!

We’re almost at the end of the year.

This year started fine for me; it peaked so much in the middle and dropped hard at the end.

It made me question: Was there a thin line between happiness and rage???

Lately, I’m having problems with rage. There’s nothing to worry about, though, because it fades away so fast that I’m only left feeling like shit.

I’ll end this post with something I’ve been thinking about lately: love is not supposed to feel like a chore, a burden, or an obligation, right? With a love that’s sweet like honey… I guess I’m a mosquito?? 😟

Novacain

Dear you,

It was October 31 today. October’s final day, hence…

Happy (Hollow)Halloween?

Sometimes I wish I could just feel nothing—no pain, no sadness, and no anger—but if I do not feel any of that, am I still alive?

Living is feeling everything at once. If you’ve never experienced grief, you can’t be happy.

I like to believe that suffering, grief, and difficult experiences teach us to appreciate the good things in life more. They make happiness feel more attainable and more genuine.

Ps. If you find a moment to explore my latest playlist, I’d appreciate it. Just me attempting to recreate the sensation of Novacain through this musical compilation.

– Belle

Maybe I want a love that consumes

Hi…

I put my saved songs on shuffle today, and something mystic just happened.

I’m 15 years old again. (I just finished reading the entire Vampire Diaries book and was sooo lovestruck with Damon. I’m inlove yet heartbroken. I was having a hard time accepting that a fictional vampire from a book is not real 😭.)

These songs are what I listened to back then.

It reminded me of the stupid things I did. Like putting my hair up. Trying to expose my neck, believing that a vampire would notice and be tempted to drink my blood. Things like leaving my window open. Instead of a vampire… all I got were mosquito bites 🤦.

Can you imagine a very attractive vampire totally falling for you? Who is sarcastic and funny and kind of bad but has a soft spot for you? Who will give you the world and love you for eternity? I mean, don’t we all want that kind of love? Like, can someone make that happen, please?

Anyway, here is the playlist. I hope you like it 💝

Ps. If you’re a ‘delena’ fan and you haven’t read the book yet, then read Shadow Souls. There’s a lot of Damon and Elena moments there.