Lately, In All My Dreams

I see you lately in all my dreams. You needed saving in a burning apartment. I blow you a kiss and I lock you in.

That’s from a song I was recently hooked in – Death Grips by Etta Marcus

I thought I’d give you an update on my life lately.

I’ve been doing well.

Yesterday I watched the movie Swiss Army Man. Its added to my fav movie list now. I thought it was pure comedy but it turned out to be an unusual deep tear-jerker movie and I LOVE IT. I especially love these lines:

“Everything poops.” — Hank.

“If my best friend keeps his farts from me, what else is he hiding from me, and why does that thought make me feel so alone?” — Manny.

“But maybe everyone’s a little bit ugly. Yeah, maybe we’re all just ugly, dying sacks of shit and maybe all it’ll take is one person to just be okay with that, and then the whole world will be dancing and singing and farting, and everyone will feel a little bit less alone.” — Manny.

I think the message of the movie is about how shame creates distance between people. The way we hide some parts of ourselves that is actually a normal human body function like farting because of shame. Farting in the movie is like a metaphor for how much we censor ourselves just to be accepted. We start performing a version of ourselves instead of just being ourselves.

Everyone farts. Everyone is awkward and has moments they’d rather hide. The only difference is how well we hide it. And that’s where the loneliness comes in. When everyone is pretending they don’t have these “ugly” parts, it creates this silent pressure to look perfect but it is isolating. If no one shows their real self, no one feels truly seen. If even one person is openly, unapologetically human, it helps others feel safe enough to do the same. The more you accept your own “ugly” parts, the less power shame has over you and the more real your connections become.

After watching the movie it made me think about this and I thought I should write it even how ridiculous it sounded:

Sometimes we were just caught up in other people’s shit and their shit doesn’t have anything to do with us. And our shit doesn’t have anything to do with them either. Though eventually their shit might get mixed up with our shit or affect our shit in some way, we have the power to control our shit in a way that is better for our shit and even for other people’s shit.

I said alot of “shit” there hahah but that probably maybe is the most un-AI thing you’ll read today or maybe in a while.

That’s it for my update. See you on the next one ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ ).