Novacain

Dear You,

It’s October 31.

The last day of the month… so Happy (Hollow)Halloween?

Lately, I’ve found myself wondering:

What if I could feel nothing at all?

No pain, no sadness, no anger.

But if I felt nothing… would I still be alive?

Living means feeling everything at once.

And maybe we need grief in order to recognize joy.

Maybe the hard moments are what sharpen the beautiful ones, making them feel real.

I like to think that sorrow teaches us how to hold happiness more gently when it finally arrives.

P.S. I made a playlist to recreate the sensation of Novacain through songs. A little emotional anesthesia.

If you have time, I’d love for you to listen.

With care,
– Belle